An empty heart, yet so heavy
You say you try, yet no heart to it
Forever, eternity, love of my life, my doll
Same words, different chats
I will never leave you became I cannot live without her
Half a decade of everything and some more
One month of her and it all fell short suddenly
There is no spark you say, something doesn’t stir anymore
She gives you everything, now my more than everything is too less
I have you with me, yet she occupies your mind
Your hands hold me, yet your heart yearns for her
You hear my words, begging you to stay
And you can only wait to finish and hear her precious voice
The cigarettes hide the smell of my charring heart well
Yet you can’t stand that she slept hungry
You made love to me, or so I thought
But you couldn’t wait to pack your bags and leave to be with her
I gave everything I could and some more
I was running on empty, made something out of that empty
Put you number one priority, ahead of family and career
Yet you can’t wait to see her cute dimples
What have I done, what have I not done, what can I do more
Questions that plague my diseased mind
I have lost all sanity reading how you talk to her
How you call her everything you called me and some more
Everything you tell her that was once whispered into my ears
I trained you so well to handle a long distance
And now you apply it somewhere else
I wait, with my last shreds of hope scraping at the bottom of empty
Hoping you will pick half a decade over a month
They say, if you have to beg someone to stay,
They have already left a long time ago
I wait, counting, watching my shattered heart break
Piece by piece, one chat message at a time
I wait for the inevitable end.
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